1) First grade teacher's name: Mrs. House.. she was the shite!
2) Last words you said: 'Mom, grandma's being a bitch!'
3) Last song you sang: Hail The Heart Breaker - The Spill Canvas
4) Last person you hugged: Drewbie.. he came to visit before work :D
5) Last thing you laughed at: The deep belly laughs? Hmmm.. Probably with Sarah laughing about how slutty Jennifer Warner was in the fifth grade.. Half-hearted laugh? With Katie, god knows about what 
6) Last time you said 'I love you': To my daddy on the phone
7) Last time you cried: Earlier... I do it every day this time of year.. :-/ 
8) What's in your CD player: Dashboard Confessional, My 'Emo' mix, and I think it's either Slipknot, OR System Of A Down
9) What color socks are you wearing: Pink stripes
10) What's under your bed: Uhhh.. folders, a box full of memories, and old poems that I don't want to read
11) What time did you wake up today: My alarm clock was set to 7:30 but I turned it off and got up at 8.. lol
12) Current taste: Old gum.. lol
13) Current hair: Up in a little bun thing
14) Current clothes: My monkey PJs and my NBC shirt
15) Current annoyance: my lip being fucking huge and in my way.
16) Current longing: Complete happiness...
17) Current desktop picture: The lead singer guy from the Wankers.. *droolz*
18) Current worry: My romantic situation
19) Current hate: I don't hate anything.. dislike? My nipples.. they're sore:(
20) Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: lips and hair.. :D
21) Last CD that you bought: Its been ages since I BOUGHT a cd.. lol.. Ummm.. I think it was Dashboard Confessional Unplugged
22) Favorite place to be: Off in a dream world 
23) Least favorite place: concious
24) Time you wake up in the morning: 6:30
25) If you could play an instrument what would it be: guitar.
26) Favorite color(s): black and pink
27) Do you believe in an afterlife: Nope, not really 
28) How tall are you? 5'2
29) Current favorite word/saying: Jesus.. I don't know.. I say Jeezums a lot, and sweetie.. lol
30) Favorite book: Scribbler Of Dreams
31) Favorite season: fall.
32) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: ... Casey... :/ 
33) Favorite day: I don't really have one.. but I don't like Tuesdays.. Monday isn't too bad because it's right after the weekend, but Tuesday SUCKS ass
34) Where would you like to go: anywhere but here
35) What is your career going to be like: If I knew what it would be, I'd answer..
36) How many kids do you want: 3...
37) What kind of car will you have: One that runs and doesn't look like shit 
38) Type a line you remember from any book: I Hate The Crutchfields.. I've always hated the Crutchfields 
39) A random lyric: Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
40) Identify some things surrounding your computer: cds, paper, pens, brush, a razor blade..... *hides it*
*Relationships*
1) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Kinda sorta
2) Did you send this to your crush? I didn't send this to anyone.. it's on my journal obviously.. if you think I have a crush on you and you're reading this, then answer this question yourself 
3) Do you prefer friends of the same or opposite sex?: oppossite. but, there are a few girls that i love.
4) Who is your best friend?: Right now? My Jenny! :D 

*The*extra*stuff*
1) Do you do drugs?: yea, I poke smot quite a bit
2) What kind of shampoo do you use? Suave
3) What are you most scared of?: I'm afraid of a lot of things.. right now though? Hurting people 
4) What are you listening to right now?: Coheed and Cambria The Light and Glass
5) Who was The last person that called you?: Katie
6) Where do you want to get married? sometimes
7) How many messenger buddies do u have? 70 on aim.
8) If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?: i'd be less fat. and I'd be nicer.. a lot nicer. And I'd want to stop cutting 
9) Any tattoos or piercing? My ears and my nipples
*Favorites*
1) Color: pink and black 
2) Favorite number: 3.. or 5...
3) Food: I'm not too fond of food right now, but I'm likin' the celery 
4) Boy's name: Adrian Joseph
5) Girls Name: Savahanna Nicole 
6) Subject in school: I don't really like any... but I'm looking forward to photography
7) Animals: I like kitties
8) Sports: i'm fat. But I do dance..
9) Place to shop: online of course.
10) Movie: 28 days later
11) Musician: Wellllll.. I'm totally feelin' the whole  Bert McCracken guy..
12) Genre of music: Punk.. pop punk, screamo. emo shite is more my bag right now...

*Have you ever?*
1) Given anyone a bath? yes
2) Smoked?: yep
3) Bungee jumped?: I want to!
4) broken the law?: Yeah.. I do often.. I'm an underage smoker and drinker and I poke smot quite a but
5) Made yourself throw-up?: *due to my lack in comfort discussing this topic, I shall have to skip this question*
6) Gone skinny dipping?: Yup.. :DO:-) 
7) Been in love?: Its hard to tell.. But yes, I think I have. 
8) Has it lasted?: As far as I can tell.. I can't tell.. :-/ It's under concideration
9) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: nope... I HAVE 'had an asthma attack' to get out of trouble.. lol

*First*thing*that*comes*to*mind*
1) Red: blood.
2) Cow: black
3) Socks: pink
4) Greenland: cold
5) Beer: corona

*Final*questions*
1) If you could be someone else for a day who would it be and why?: I think I would be myself five years ago so I could say goodbye to Casey.. 
2) What was the last movie you saw in theatres?: Connie and Carla
3) What is ur favorite Cartoon Character? JTHM
4) What you ate this morning: A cracker to make my tummy grumbles stop
5) Last time you ate: about 10 hours ago
6) Who would you hate being locked in a room with: I'd feel sorry for the person locked in there WITH me.. lol.. I'm such a horrible person, they're either be bitched or bored to death..

THE END

current mood: blank

Fuuuuuuuuuck.. I was stoned earlier. Not soo much this morning.. but I was buzzed. Then I went over to Amanda's after school, and she had a J rolled.. it was nice shit. So I was pretty gone from that.. we really got to talk and shit. The bullshit with her and Ashley is so confusing, it isn't FUNNY man.. But what can I do? Nothing.. AND I don't like her again.. No point.. she's enthralled with Ashley...

I thought about Dave all day. I have off tomorrow, so yeah, I'll probably think about him all day tomorrow too. Mandy says I should date him again. That he's good for me, that I'm not as bitchy when I'm with him.. I didn't know I WAS bitchy... :S But yeah, Lane and Dad just got home. I guess I should go.. Talk to ya'll later..

DAVE.. Call me if its before 10 :) I'll try calling around 9:00-9:15... lol

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Deep Inside Lyrics (It's by Incubus.. I remember it from driving around with Dave.. hehe.. just read 'em!!)

It's 3 o'clock,
and we ask ourselves,
"Where are we now?"
It seems we've wondered out of bounds again!
(Over and over, we ask ourselves why we don't utilize
things that are stored
deep inside of our brains!)
I'm on my own and I can't see straight!
Am I so stoned that I can't see straight?
Man, I've got to find my way back home,
but I'm too deep inside
It's 4 o'clock,
and we ask ourselves,
"Where did I go wrong?
We passed my house at least an hour ago!"
Over and over, we ask ourselves why
don't we utilize things
that are stored deep inside of our brains!
I'm on my own and I can't see straight?
Am I sooo stoned that I can't see straight?
It's 5 o'clock,
and we ask ourselves,
"We need to get home! The sun is creeping overhead again!"
I'm way too deep inside to go home...
I've got to get sane!

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Hehehe.. May tomorrow be ever better than yesterday.. *nods politely* I love you guys!

*huge kisses*

*wink*

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I'm feeling flirtaious.. Is that how you spell it?

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I don't know what recumbant means.. but I like the word yo.. back the fuck down dawg.. (I've been aroudn Amanda too long)

current mood: recumbent

In true Katie fashion, part of my plans got fucked over yesterday... Me and Rusty were supposed to go hang out with Brad, but the mug was all out of bud and was coming down in some hardcore ways... lol.. He was passed OUT. But it was cool, so me and Rasty walked around smoking what little of my shit that I had left.. (I still have half of that last bowl (which I'm going to go smoke now)

Okay.. I'm gone before I run out of time to smoke this shit, and take a shower! Love ya'll to pieces!!!

~~Stoner Kat~~

current mood: cotton-mouthed

Today was fucking BORING.. Nothing happened at all. I mean AT ALL.

The only thing interesting is I found out that Peter is engaged. He's 18, she's 19, and he's going into the military at the end of this school year. I don't think it will last. Besides, she's a big bitch and not really all that pretty.. actually, she isn't pretty at all.. (not to be mean or anything)

Tomorrow is 4/20. And I don't know if I'm going to smoke. I might, I might not. I have no one to smoke with, so I proably won't. *shrugs* No biggie! I can stand it. I'm going to stop smoking everything as soon as I get my license. The last thing I need is to get pulled over stoned or smoking under-age. SO... yeah. I get my permit in two weeks.. *dances* YE-AH!

Do you even know how fucked up the show "The Swan" is? They took 30 women who felt they were ugly, gave them plastic surgery, made them work out and go on diets so they could have the 'ultimate transformation'. On top of all of that, they couldn't see themselves for THREE MONTHS. They have this huge showing, and as soon they see themselves, one of the two they showed are chosen to go to a 'pagent of swans'. How increadibly FUCKED UP! *rolls eyes* bad news, bad bad news.

Yikes.. its 9 already, I suppose I should call Dave and see how he is.. I hope his day wasn't too bad.. I spent all day thinking about him... *sigh* Goodness...

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One Year Six Months by Yellowcard Sew this up with threads of reason and regret So, I will not forget. I will not forget How this felt one year six months ago I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do Follow me there A beautiful somewhere A place that I can share with you I can tell that you don't know me anymore It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget And being on this road is anything but sure Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do Follow me there A beautiful somewhere A place that I can share with you So many nights, legs tangled tight Wrap me up in a dream with you Close up these eyes, try not to cry All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you Memories of you Memories of you Memories of you I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do Follow me there A beautiful somewhere A place that we can share Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

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Good Morning, Good Day, Good Afternoon, Good Evening, Good night and Good-bye.. *cursties* Sleep well my darlings. May your dreams be pleasant and your tomorrow be ever better than yesterday. ;)

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The one, and only!

Kat.. ;) *muahs*

current mood: undecided

Wellllll... I spent the night at Brigitte's house. Kind of okay I guess. We went to see Connie and Carla (that movie about the ladies who dress up as drag queens), it was okay, kind of stupid. And then we went to her house and just kind of sat there. She called some guy who she's "in love with" (she's in love with a new guy every other week, so no biggie) and bitched about how he lives so far away and how he has a girlfriend. She didn't mention his non-singleness, or the fact that he's 23. I don't know. She's so confused. And I'm confused about her. She bitches about people going to her to bitch, BUT, she comes to me to bitch. Do I sense some hypocracy? *shrugs* Her deal entirely. So I cam home, Justin and his girl of the moment were here. She's pretty cool though. I guess their thinking of moving out here. That'd kick some tush.

Dave called, and I found out some very upsetting information (That I'm going to keep out of here, because I'm pretty sure he wouldn't appreciate me telling the would through this) and he came over. When he first got here, he was so- so different. He was quiet. I was afraid to touch him. It was almost like he was an imagination of mine, like if I touched him, he'd fall apart. I felt so bad, like I was the reason what happened did. I cried (but what else is new?). We spent the night together. God, how I missed him. It'd been too entirely long since I'd seen him. He asked me if it was possible for us to be together. Oh god. That was the worst and best thing I've ever heard. After what he's been through this past week, I don't think it would be wise for us to be an 'us' again.I want to, don't get me wrong. I'd LOVE to, but I can't. I was just getting used to being single again, and then I see him and fall right in love with him all over again. I was convinced two days ago that I hated him. I hated him with all of my being, and now, I love him again. God damn. I can't seem to make up my mind. A couple of my friends said I should just forget about him. Just cut off all ties to him. But I couldn't do that if I was FORCED to. I'd find some way to keep in contact with him. *sigh* I'm so emotionally drained yet charged at the same time. Not to mentioned confused.

I don't know. I was at a complete loss of emotion yesterday, and then I see Dave, spend some time with him, and they're all back. All these silly emotions. Damn them.

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"A Box Full Of Sharp Objects"

It's our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We've fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had

Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing

Do you want a song of glory
Well I'm fucking screaming at you

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There comes a point in one's life when they realize what a crock of shit all this emotional bullshit is, and then realize that they wouldn't give it up for the world.

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(To Dave: It was good. The only thing I noticed is that you go from calling them bad words to cursing up a storm. It's not consistant. Other than that, it's a little confusing, but really really really good.. *kisses*) If you can call, call on the cell, I'll have it just in case you do. Don't worry about the time. I'll be up

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I'm off to hope Dave calls.

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Good Morning, good day, good afternoon, good evening, good night and good-bye... *curtsies*

current mood: confused

You know how there are those guys that are complete sweethearts one day, and the next, they're complete and utter assholes.. well.. Yeah.. Dave is one of those. What the fucking hell? Fuck him.. FUUUCK HIM

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... I hate guys.. You have no idea.. NO IDEA AT ALL.. my dear fucking god..

There's always that one guy one who you think deserves to get his balls cut off.. and right now.. Dave is that one guy... (not that their absence would be noticed if you get what I'm saying)

I regret having sex with him like you don't believe... You have no idea how much I regret that

Hey guys.. guess what!!!

I DON'T HAVE A PENIS!!!!

I mean, fucking DUH!

(Story: I offered to send this guy a clip of me singing for his band and shite, and all of a sudden, after I send him the clip, he realizes I'm a chick.. Jesus. This guy is a MORON)

Whatever, I'm over it.. but I'm still increadibly pissed off...

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL! I mean, he couldn't tell I was a chick by the pink text on AIM, or the fact that in my bio on AZpunk CLEARLY states that I'm a female..

God I'm so fucking pissed off!

current mood: pissed off

Well jesus.. It's a friday, a day every week that everyone wishes they could just sleep in and relax all day, and I can, and I was up a little before 7. What the hell is wrong with me? further more, I went to bed at around 1 last night! I'm fucking crazy man! lol

*SMOKE BREAK*

Sooo.. I'm back.. lol.. Yeah.. UM.. What happened yesterday?

School was uneventful, all the cool shit happened after.. lol

My big sexy red head gave me and ashley a ride home. Kind of awkward because of the condom incident.. lol.. She asked him about them (It was actually an empty box.. lol) And he was really embarassed. lol. So I got home, grabbed some PJs and sat down with Katie for a few minutes before Misty and her clan came and picked me up. We drove to some money place, and home depot and then went home. After this it kind of gets fuzzy. lol. I know Sarah and Angel (her two stoner friends) came over with some bud so we passed around two pipes (Mine and Sarah's) and I learned how to carb.. I hate Carb. I never get big hits.. lol But it was cool.. Two pipes, four bowls, four people. Yeah.. kick azzzz. lol.. And then we walked to Smokin' Tim's or something.. It was a three letter name.. but by then, I was pretty well smashed, so I'll never remember, lol

*Katie is on the phone* *Katie came over* lol

Yeah, then we smoked a blunt (cherry flavored wrapping paper.. YUM). Then I called Derek.. lol.. fucking ODD. He actually answered. I guess I was being all stupid (NO SHIT, I was fucking GONE), and I asked him why he hadn't called. He told me some bullshit story about how he went to flagstaff, and then when he came back, he got drunk at a friend's house and left his phone there and then he got it back and his little sister broke it.. lol. All I can say is B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But he's still really hot!!! *drool* I want to have massive amounts of sex with him!!!

It's funneh though because he's NOT my type AT ALL. I like the tall skinny (Not freakishly skinny, but cute skinny) guys with dark straight hair that I can play with that isn't all gelled up and shit. lol.. He's kinda short (but he's taller than me {Along with everyone else! lol}), with BLONDE HAIR and BLUE EYES. and he's not really all that skinny.. he's kinda pudgy.. but he's SUPER HOT. He said we'll hang out again soon.. Oh dear god.. *drools* I'm super horny now.. lol..

Well.. I'm going to sleep for a while, while I still can... love you guys!!

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White Trash Anthem By TBS

Have you ever prayed to the night sky?
Under one of them cold street lights?
Watched another stolen car drive then lose your hope and say "This is where I'll die"?

But you try to say you know me.
But you try to say you're from my world.
Well, have you ever gone to sleep to the sounds of the gunshots, sirens, and violence all alone?

They want to break me down. I hope I can hold my ground.

Your world is MTV. Spring breaks and ecstasy.
You got your hopes and you'll get your dreams.
Well, that choice wasn't there for me.

My world remains unseen by you.
Poverty and no family,
Broken homes and broken dreams,
I fall upon the thorns of life. I bleed.

They want to break me down. I won't back down.
They try to break me down. I hope I can hold my ground.

I ain't I your kind of white. I ain't that kind of white.
I'll never be your kind of white, I'll never be your kind 'cause you made me outcast.

I ain't your kind of white. I've never been your kind of white.
I ain't that kind of white 'cause I'm a lowlife outcast piece of white trash.

Five years on down the road (you've got) two kids and a high paying job,
(with a) picket fence and a college degree.
Well, that choice wasn't there for me.

This path on which I walk: it ain't a game and it ain't all talk.
This is all I ever had.
This is all they ever let me have.

I ain't ever been nor will I ever be another blind eye in society.
I seen the way it was for the people like me.
I seen the way it was for the families so...

Have you ever prayed to the night sky?
Under one of them cold street lights?
Watched another stolen car drive by and lost your hope and said "This is where I'll die"?

I ain't I your kind of white. I ain't that kind of white.
I'll never be your kind of white, I'll never be your kind 'cause you made me outcast.

I ain't your kind of white. I've never been your kind of white.
I ain't that kind of white 'cause I'm a lowlife outcast piece of white trash.

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Closing Statement...

I'm An Emo PRINCESS! ;) I love you guys!

current mood: bouncy

Blah... man.. I'm so bored. I need to be working on my lab report, but I can't because I left MY notes in my locker. Smart move, yes, I know :(

Should I be enjoying this whole single bit? I mean, I guess I am.. but, I miss the whole relationship with Dave thing. The calls, the care.. I mean, sure, guys hit on me and stuff, but it isn't the same as being with Dave. *sigh* Damn it.. just fucking damn it. I haven't seen him in two weeks.. that's a long ass mother fucking time man.. :(

Okies, I'm going to go, I love you guys!!!

*Kat*

current mood: blah

*does some goofy little dance*

Today wasn't half bad... School sucked actually.. I found out I have an F in biology, but what's new? NOTHING.. lmao.. but he said I can raise it to at least a c by the end of the quarter.. so yay.. not failing!!!

Yay! Lane went and bought me some cigarettes.. hecks yeah.

And I got my Coercion flyers all ready and shit. Their show is in a week. And Danny is here on Wednesday. Pretty damn awesome.

What else.. OH YEAH. I cam home early. lmao.. I saw Katie at lunch and she told me to go home early with her, so I called my mom and told her I puked up some nasty shit, and she called my dad and VWALLA! I was home in a matter of an hour.. lol. It was pretty damned awesome. (I'm saying pretty damn awesome a lot... :D)

I called Dave and no one answered.. :-/ I dunno why I called, I guess I just wanted someone to talk to. Wanna know something so kickazz? I just found out that I'm a moron! hehe Well that's not the cool part, the cool part is that I get $80 dollars! (I spent 50 at the mall and I thought I got 70.. hence the moron part.. lol)

*COUNTDOWN!*

11 minutes until my father kicks my ass off the computer! lol

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm tired. I slept all day, and I'm tired. I'll probably get off the computer and smoke the rest of the cigarette I started earlier and didn't finsh because nothing good was on the radio, and then head off to catch a few Zs man. ohh.. sleeeeeeeep *drools*

Should I call Dave? Nah, I won't. But I really want to. God, I miss him. I really do.

I was listening TBS earlier.. and... well.. Bike Scene rocks...

"I’ll leave the lights down low
So she knows I mean business
And maybe we could talk this over
Cause I could be your best bet
Let alone your worst ex
And let alone your worst...

I wanna hate you so bad
But I can’t (but I can’t) stop this
Anymore than you can

So honestly, how could you say those things
When you know they don’t mean anything
And you know very well
That I can’t keep my hands to myself,
Hands to myself

I wanna hate you so bad
But I can’t (but I can’t) stop this
Anymore than you can

This is all wrong and it shows
There’s certain things I promised not to let you know,
(I’ve got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat,
I’ve got a silly way of keepin you up on the...)
Not to let you know
I never let you, never let you, never...

You’ve got this silly way
Of keeping me on the edge of my seat
But you’re only counting the clock against the train
And I’m miserable, oh
(I’ve got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat,
I’ve got a silly way of keepin you up on the...)
And you’re just getting started
I’m miserable, oh
And you’re just getting started

You’ve got me right where you want me
(let’s never talk) let’s never talk, let’s never,
Let’s never talk about this again because...
I didn’t want it to mean that much to me
I didn’t want it to mean that much to me
I didn’t want it to mean that much to me
I didn’t want it to mean that much to me

Anyway... yeah "

*sigh* I'm going to go dream of Dave and how much I miss the silly bastard...

current mood: sleepy