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[Jan. 4th, 2005|12:36 pm] |
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so tired of this bloody cold. stuffy nose, cough, aches... haven't had a voice since new years. :/
Sucked it up & got a Dr's appt today, which I'm not looking forward to. I don't LIKE doctors at all. *blechy face* |
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| insomnia & work |
[Oct. 18th, 2004|07:49 am] |
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are a BAD combo. |
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[Sep. 1st, 2004|04:30 am] |
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| | guess. | ] |
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| | AFI: I Wanna Get a Mohawk | ] |
Let's play translate the parent:
"I wish you were 7 again, you were a whole lot easier to get along with"
read: You were easier to manipulate, and didn't wrinkle your nose from the cigarette smell when I walked by
"I thought you were a part of this family, and willing to sacrifice for eachother, but i guess not"
read: I'm worked up over the cat dying, and instead of admitting it, I'm projecting it onto your sister. Don't you love your sister? Don't you love me? Why would you be angry when I make snide comments about you, then ask for a favor? I don't understand, and must wear my hurt puppydog look and storm away
"I don't understand what you want me to do with my computer"
read: I didn't bother to read the step-by-step instructions in the article you sent me... do it for me? i'm lazy, and not responsible enough to ask for help in a coherent and mature way!
"Oh I'Mmelodramatic... RIGHT!!!! *storm down hallway, slam door, bitch loudly to father about how melodramatic she is*"
read: I'm psychotic, and depressed, not to mention delusional. I'm depressed, addicted to alcohol and cigarettes, I can't admit it because I'm ashamed i'm so weak. i think everyone's out to get me, and no one loves me, mostly because they don't and I've driven them away with my anti-social behavior, but I can't admit that, because of aforementioned delusions. i think EVERYONE should love me, and that if they don't, it's 'cuz their nasty people, not because i am. I ENJOY trying to convince others that they're the bad ones. Throwing other people into a deep abyss of depression gives me joy because someone else is suffering as much as I am.
I feel like I'm 16 again. |
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| car problem solved |
[Aug. 25th, 2004|07:59 pm] |
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Solution: 16 yr old sister gets $12,000 new car. Newest one in the house. Damn. Oh well, at least she's not driving mine, then. |
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| I'm alive |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|10:09 pm] |
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| | Cowboy Mouth: Jenny Says | ] |
Poor journal... sitting all neglected there... I'm around. Coping w/ living at home again (dear lord what a traumatic experience thats been), & being long-distance w/ John. *pukey face* Long distance is relative, he's 20 minutes up the freeway... but my car's been comandeered to be my sister's commuter car, 'cuz mom's a spoiled brat, so... :/ visits may be fewer and fewer. |
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| happy birthday to me |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|01:11 am] |
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I'm 22... and all by myself. just me and the damn cat. how lame :P ah well... |
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| lonely this morning |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|04:53 am] |
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| |  melancholy | ] |
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| | radio | ] |
damn, I hate not being able to sleep. I had all the time in the world to talk earlier, and nothing to say... and yet, now I want company more than anything else. I don't know... weird late-night thoughts. I need to stop reading depressing books before bed, maybe. Time for cartoons instead, perhaps... *wanders off to find some Naruko to watch... something to break the silence, at least. |
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| wow |
[Jun. 30th, 2004|11:24 pm] |
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| | sssh, the birdys tweeting | ] |
holy bejesus home sucks.
Mom drank from 5-9 straight, by dinner she couldn't hold a fork straight. picked a fight w/ dad then stormed off to bed alone. aahh... just like old times... |
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| find me yet? |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|06:40 pm] |
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Impressed if you did! :D |
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| Stupid, Stupid, Stupid! |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
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Ok, just in case you ever decide this may be a good idea... DON'T run this incredibly insecure DANGEROUS software: http://geekscripts.com/cgi-bin/vshop.cgi?action=main&view=4
The code consists of this:
if ($img1_name != "") {
@copy("$img1" , "/home/admin/www/fileupload/$img1_name")
or die("Couldn't Upload Your File.");
} else {
die("No File Specified");
}
and nothing else. geeze.
So, a girl w/ an account on the server i host my site at ignores this valueable advice, installs said script (readme advises you to chmod the directory you install it 777 of all things)... and a l337 h4X0R decides that our server would be an AWESOME place to stage some attacks on undernet. And a few other nasty things. So, our box is pretty well compromised, every resume w/ a website I've sent out in the last month is now inaccurate, and it's only luck I'm smart enough to convince one of hte admins to let me snag my files & hand check them to be sure they're not anything nasty. geeze. what a pain in the butt.
And to boot, I slept through econ yesterday and today. tomorrow there's HW due and a quiz. thursday's our final. shit. |
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| meh, i LIKE driving, really! |
[Jun. 11th, 2004|01:00 am] |
Oye, I'm a busy cookie, and the family chaufeur this week. Home to take my kid sis to the optometrists & then stay w/ her since hte parents are out of town, back to school for class, a trip to union City to take my dad to get his eyes checked on wednesday (he's getting laser surgery tuesday), and then FNM that friday! Oye!! Hmmm... better find some music me & dad'll agree on...
In other news, I graduated last month, and have 1 more week of summer school till I'm technically done. The job market is abysmal. Everyone think happy employed thoughts at me, and if you know anyone on the west coast who needs a CS graduate w/ a fondness for java and databases, let me know! |
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| I'm alive, I swear!! |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|06:33 pm] |
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f'in summer school... |
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[May. 2nd, 2004|03:47 am] |
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looks like i've pre-emptively turned off some error-reporting, although if you're trying to log in w/ an account that's already logged in elsewhere, it won't work. :/ Presentation didn't happen... I'm not quite sure why... *shrug* so... on with life I go, I guess... back to the debug board ;) |
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| downloads, baybee |
[May. 1st, 2004|01:48 am] |
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tah dah.
http;//acm.cs.uop.edu/~rachael
I'm pooped. 10 hr days, 4 hr nights (don't ask where the other 10 hrs go, I don't know), for a week. and more to come. this has got to be THE single roughest end of semester I've ever had. blech. |
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| FINALLY!!! |
[Apr. 29th, 2004|01:16 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | the hum of the lab AC | ] |
Holy frickin' shit. for a MONTH I have been fighting with this JTree. and now, minutes before I rip it out of my gui and replace it with something simpler... I find what I need. I'd been using the wrong constructor the whole time. Fuck. I'm such a retard. a MONTH. a WHOLE FUCKING MONTH I've been futilely fighting against 1 line of code. This... just... the relief mingled with the annoyance that it was so simple... relief wins, though. just fucking glad that I'm down to 2 bugs, and 1's not even a bug. Saturday I'll see about binding up some .jar's so y'all can play w/ the finished product, since I present then. Should be "relatively" full-featured. As much as I wanted anyway. Hopefully anyone who cares will be impressed! ;) |
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| tab issue fixed |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|11:24 am] |
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If you see cheersTesting online, feel free to drop me a message :) beware, though, i may ask you to keep IM'ing me to help find bugs!! ;)
Comp org test was a breeze. Fucked up, would've burned a chip out, but... meh. 1 pt out of 50. Caught an error in the prof's key, which'll save us ALL grief further down the line... he was MOST annoyed, 'cuz he'd changed hte problem... then photocopied the old version. :eek:
In other news:
Everyone in the internet needs to get their heads out of their asses and remember: IT'S JUST THE FUCKING INTERNET!
This has been a Public Service Announcement sponsored by the People Who Hate Internet Drama Unless They're Not Involved Foundation. thank you. |
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| it sends... it recieves... IT HAS BUGS! |
[Apr. 14th, 2004|05:46 pm] |
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But there are some DEFINATE steps forward. You can chat now, so long as you message the other person first, and they're ON your buddy list. Buddys coming ONLINE display correctly, although they don't go off again, yet. There's even a button to close the window, although it doesn't DO anything yet.In short, I'm plodding along.
bug list:
0: If someone else messages you first, you stop recieving messages!
1: when messaged, messages appear in the uppermost tab only.
2: tabs aren't closeable
3: groups are shown collapsed by default (I can't find a way to open them by deafult!!)
4: when user goes offline, client doesn't acknowledge it. (method just needs implemented)
5: Cursor should default to the chat-window in a chat-tab
6: Lots of features exist, but need hooked to gui elements so that they're accessable. (ie away messages)
3 weeks left, everyone cross fingers!! |
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| still plugging away |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|11:18 am] |
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| | Voltaire: Ex Lovers Lover | ] |
No screenshots today, but a LOT of progress. 'bout 2/3 to 3/4 of the gui's there... someo f it needs actually hooked up, but it's THERE, at least. Been fighting with JTrees and verifying that buddies are actually online... I'm torn between keeping customizing the JTree to be more what i want, or leave it half-assed in favor of hooking up the actual communications-part of the app, which i should do, anyway!! :eek:
on a personal front, still trying to figure out what I'm gonna do after i move out the end of next month... Depends on what John's gonna do, I guess... i don't wanna free-load off of him, but I REALLY don't wanna move home. blech. I'm all bruised up from sleeping in that damn trundle bed... it's got a tall frame on 3 sides & i sprawl, and don't sleep next to the wall...
Graduation's coming *shudder*
Driving myself out to El Dorado this weekend for easter... lots of happy dont-get-lost thoughts, please! ;) Lord knows I need em! ;)
PS: check the guys in my Music thingy out... kinda cool stuff, in a gothy, violin-laden gypsy-flavored way. (descriptive, no? ;) ) |
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