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esf ggggeg
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[29 May 2005|09:30pm] |
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I'm realizing now, that I shouldn't have watched Saw tonight. It was a good movie.. but the negative energy now is just killing me after living two weeks in a world of just positive.
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[14 May 2005|01:18am] |
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I'm beginning to see now more than ever that people are so selfish.
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[03 May 2005|09:12pm] |
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Nine Inch Nails. |
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Nothing can stop me now
cause I don't care anymore.
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| just hold on.. |
[02 May 2005|02:22pm] |
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Now that I have you alone, we can get down to business soon.
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[30 Mar 2005|01:45am] |
My days consist of Hunter S. Thompson and painting on cardboard.
I hope Spring Break never ends.
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[06 Feb 2005|10:52pm] |
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Mark Harvilla - My Ever-lasting Paradise |
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I love taking medicine that makes me drowsy. I love that feeling of being comfortable no matter what position I lay in. I just feel so weightless.
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[04 Feb 2005|04:39pm] |
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The Cure - In Your House |
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I play at night in your house
I live another life
Pretending to swim
In your house
I change the time in your house
The hours I take
Go so slow...
I hear no sound in your house
Silence
In the empty rooms
I drown at night in your house
Pretending to swim...
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| thoughts. I miss you. |
[20 Jan 2005|03:38pm] |
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Japan - Ghosts |
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It's so easy to mold humans into what you want.
I don't know how that doesn't scare the people who are being molded. Although, they're probably oblivious to the whole situation.
I have certain powers over certain people. I've come to learn that. I don't like having such power, so I don't use it to my advantage on purpose. Sometimes it just can't be stopped.
Every night I lay in bed and think, and it's what keeps me up at night. Last night I did this same thing. But. I was thinking of a certain thing, and instead of keeping me awake, it made me feel so safe and comfortable. Which made me sleep. I've never felt that before. I've never just layed there and thought and drifted off to sleep because of how content my thoughts made me.
I've been smiling a lot lately. I love this feeling that is making me smile uncontrollably.
What movie was the song "Just Like Honey" in by The Jesus and Mary Chain? If you know, tell me.
I've realized my reason for being put here on earth. It's something I never really thought too much about, but it just came to me recently why I'm here. I know my purpose.
A white flash keeps appearing in my right eye, randomly. It was bothering me at first, but I think it's about to get to the point where it's just going to be comforting, and when it goes away, I will wish it was there once again.
I like holding hands. Especially when you don't know you're holding hands until it's time to let go, when the feeling of wanting it back is so strong.
I got paint on my favorite bracelt and it's not even bothering me.
Nothing can stop me now.
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[18 Jan 2005|10:21pm] |
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:)
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[16 Jan 2005|10:54pm] |
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If you were offered a chance to be happy..
wouldn't you take it?
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[15 Jan 2005|12:46am] |
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I think this is the turning point.
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[11 Jan 2005|10:28pm] |
"I'll go run away."
"can I come with you?"
"no"
"hah. okay"
"if you were to come with me i would not be lost."
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[29 Dec 2004|07:41am] |
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Eagles of Death Metal - I Only Want You |
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Ever wonder how differently your life would be like if someone was missing from it?
I'm looking around at the items on my desk, and wondering what wouldn't be here if so and so wasn't in my life. I'm searching through all the lessons they've taught me and wondering if anyone would be here to teach me those if they weren't. It's hard to imagine what my life would be like without them. I don't see myself as having much of one.
You learn something from everyone, and I'd never want to give up what I have been taught.
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[23 Dec 2004|11:53pm] |
I tell you something wonderful and it doesn't even effect you.
She just tells you something, and you jump off your ass and click your heels.
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[23 Dec 2004|11:05pm] |
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temptation.
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| Lucy was seven and wore a head of blue barrettes. |
[08 Dec 2004|10:47pm] |
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VNV Nation - Airships |
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I don't agree with those who say you can overcome a fear, by experiencing/facing it.
There's a lot more to it.
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[12 Nov 2004|11:22pm] |
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I need to start taking a notebook with me everywhere, I come up with things I want to write down constantly, but nothing to record them in.
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[24 Oct 2004|11:45pm] |
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What if I reached over and grabbed your hand tomorrow and said "Let's get out of here."
What if I reached over and grabbed your hand and you said "Let's get out of here."
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[12 Oct 2004|11:23pm] |
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It doesn't even matter who.
My eyes would be closed anyway.
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