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[Sep. 25th, 2004|11:13 pm]
[mood | tired]
[music |haven - is this bliss]

F I R S T
First Best Friend: jasmine windsor
First Real Girlfriend/Boyfriend: matthew dale
First Date: matthew dale
First Kiss: matthew dale
First Album/CD: truebliss ha ha
First Piercing/Tattoo: ears
First True Love: dunno
First Enemy: candice
First Time Dying My Hair: form 2
First Formal Dance: form 2
First Time Breaking A Bone: form 2
First Time Getting Really Sick: when i was 9


L A S T
Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck
Last Compliment: i got told i had nice lips
Last/Current boy/girlfriend: ha ha
Last Crush: kerrin? current is current.
Last Time Driving: six months ago?
Last Big Car Ride: january
Last Kiss: yesturday...was just a peck on the cheek though
Last Good Cry: can't remember
Last Movie Seen: farenhite 9/11
Last Phone Call: chandra rang me
Last Thing Written: list for runner boy at work
Last Show Watched: amazing race
Last Time Showered: this morning
Last Shoes Worn: white adidas's
Last Person That You Saw Naked Besides You: ha ha
Last CD Played: haven
Last Item Bought: haven cd
Last Disappointment: no one talking to me on msn :(
Last Annoyance: chandra blaming me!
Last Song You Heard: is this bliss - haven
Last Piercing/Tattoo: my ears

I AM: jenni
I WANT: sleep
I HAVE: a messy room
I WISH: my crush was recipricated
I MISS: not being a smart arse
I FEAR: moving
I HEAR: haven
I SEARCH FOR: old nzm.com posts
I WONDER: if i'll complete my folios
I REGRET: being a smart arse
I LOVE: life
I ACHE: in my back
I ALWAYS: laugh
I AM NOT: afraid
I DANCE: like a mo fo
I SING: when i want to
I CRY: in stupid movies, like ice age
I AM NOT ALWAYS: nice
I WRITE: important stuff
I WIN: nothing
I LOSE: my mind
I CONFUSE: people.
I SHOULD: clean my room

x. you get embarrassed when: people mock you for liking someone
x. what upsets you: old memories
x. you keep a diary: no
x. you like to cook: yes
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no
x. you bite your fingernails: no
x. you believe in love: yes

Do You...?
take a shower everyday: yes
have a(any) crush(es): yes
think you've been in love: yes
want to get married: yes
have any tattoos/where? no
piercings/where?: ears
get motion sickness?: sometimes...boat sick.
think you're a health freak: no
get along with your parents: yah

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK Of
Ryan: acting
Rob: kari's ex
Drew: carey
Stephanie: princess
Aaron: danoo's lil boy
Amy: god sister
Paul: from soda
Eve: christmas
Alex: from pepsi chart
Justin: timberlake
Ricky: martin

SCREEN NAMES: jenni punk
SIGN: libra
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: blonde
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: real blonde, fake blonde
EYE COLOR: blue

( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 4
COLOR: red
DAY: thursday
MONTH: october
SONG: cornflake girl - tori amos
FOOD: feta
SEASON: summer
DRINK: ojay

( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolate

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yes, dj
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yes
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
KISSED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no
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ahh [Aug. 8th, 2004|01:40 pm]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |degrees k]

OMG...i might actually go and study in christchurch next year....i'm scared...ahh...!!!!

lani...i need to talk to you re: above. i'll chuck you an email when i can.
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If [Apr. 13th, 2004|08:41 pm]
[mood | depressed]
[music |life for rent - dido]

beeeuteeful:

If - Bread

If a picture paints a thousand words,
then why I can't paint you?
The words will never show the you I've some to know.
if a face could launce a thousand ships,
then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you, You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
you come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tommorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you. And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
and you and I would simply fly away

I feel like shit at the moment....not physically shit....just emotionally....its dumb....i was feeling like this in the week before school ended, then over the weekend I got good, but now i'm back to square one. its not going away and it sucks. i don't like feeling like this....i can't get out. i don't know why either...

hayley p said that i wasnt as positive as i used to be....i guess thats right....but meh....i don't know why....i've been tossed around emotionally heaps over the last month, and i don't think many people know the extent to which i've gone down...not that i want them too...but still....i hate feeling like this...i have a feeling as to WHY i'm like this....but its dumb...so we keep it quiet for the time being....

its times like these i really really wish i had my drivers lisence...cause all i want to do right now is get in a car, put on the calming music and drive...go away....ya know?

i think i'm going to do a dissapearing act for a couple of days....
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you bow to no one [Apr. 12th, 2004|09:18 pm]
[mood | happy]
[music |On the Sun - the black seeds]

good stuff renee.

[Renee - i can't be fucked writing out my whole brief for you tonight, i will do so first thing in the morning for you okay....i'm going out for the day....i expect a reply by the time i get home around 6pm okay?]

The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:Yes
Do you party a lot? How often?:Kinda, every couple of weeks recently
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:No
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:Far to much
Do you skip classes? How often?:Yea, once or twice a week
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:No
Do you steal?:No
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:Not often, no
Do you drool over celebrities?:Sometimes, not as much as used to, I don't have time anymore
Do you watch a lot of TV?:Not anymore, I don't have time
Do you ever watch the News?:Yea, when I can...usually if i'm eating dinner at around the same time
Do you even care about world issues?:Yea
Do you read books often?:I try to, I havent read a GOOD book in ages though
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:Not failing no, haven't been assessed yet
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:Not really...I don't count school as spending time with my friends
Do you smoke cigarettes?:No...only when hayley gives them to me....naughty girl
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:No
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:Not often, but I do have crushes
Do you cuss a lot?:Yea
Are you desperate to fit in?:No
Are you intelligent?:Yes
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:No
Black eyeliner?:Sometimes
Black eyeshadow?:No
Black trenchcoat?:No
Black boots?:No
Black fishnets?:Yes
Black nail polish?:Sometimes
Cigarettes?:No
Heavy metal music?:No
Marilyn Manson?:Sometimes
Kittie?:Who?
Cradle of Filth?:Who?
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:No
Do you like to be seen as:Cool?, yes thanks
Are you an intellectual?:Sometimes
An atheist?:No
Horrible home life?:No
Hopelessly depressed?:No
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:No
Self-mutilation?:No
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:Not overly
Big black boots?:No
Mohawk?:A funky one, yes
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:No
Loud, confident and opinionated?:Yes
Wild hair colors?:No
NOFX?:Yes
Rancid?:Yes
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:No
A:O-K
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:I dunno
Do you watch a lot of sports?:Sometimes
Play a lot of sports?:No
Talk a lot about sports?:No
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:Yes
Are you arrogant?:Sometimes
Are you a male or female whore?:Female [whore]
Are you homophobic?:No
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:No
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:No
Boobs = yes?:Yes
Parties = yes?:Yes
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:No
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:Sometimes
Have you ever been on a diet?:Yes
How much did you lose?:Not enough
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:No
Make yourself throw up?:Sometimes I just feel like throwing up
Make-up?:Yea
Low-cut tops?:Yea *wicked grin*
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:D, though, some brands I go bigger
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:No
Giggle a lot?:Yea
What's the deal with boys?:I dunno, boys are fickle
Thongs?:Yea
Pretty bras?:Yea
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:YM
Who's the weaker sex?:The male brain is about 6 inches long
Are you a feminist?:Sometimes
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:Yea, he was my first celebrity crush
How often do you shave your legs?:The day before physio...so twice a week
How about your armpits?:Once a week...if that
Are you emotional?:I can be
Especially when on your period?:Yea
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:Originality
Independence or Companionship?:Independence
Stability or Freedom?:Stability
Personal or Interpersonal?:Personal
Introvert or Extrovert?:Extrovert
Popularity or Isolation?:Popularity
Unique or Loved?:Both dammit!
Understood or Individual?:See above
You or Them?:Them

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lame [Feb. 26th, 2004|09:44 pm]
[mood | blah]
[music |hysteria - muse]

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please don't slow me down if i'm going too fast [Feb. 17th, 2004|07:24 pm]
[mood | geeky]
[music |the strokes]

ears to renee:

Yes or NO....
You keep a diary = Graphics/Visual Diary....
you like to cook = yeah
you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = yeah
you fold your underwear = if i'm folding the washing
you talk in your sleep = nup
you set your watch ahead = sometimes it just happens
you bite your fingernails = its not a habit
you believe in [IN A THING CALLED] love = yes

WHATS THE LAST...
movie you rented = rear window - hitchcock
movie you bought = Fast and the Furious
song you listened to = snake - audiobullys
song that was stuck in your head = under pressure
you've downloaded = beeswax - paselode
CD you bought = the new black seeds one
CD you listened to = dido - life for rent
person you've called = Jacynta
person that's called you = Jacynta
TV show you've watched = it was so long ago i can't remember!
person you were thinking of = kerrin

DO...
you wish you could live somewhere else = sometimes
you think about suicide = not about myself
you believe in online dating = not anymore
you want more piercings = another hole in each ear
you want more tattoos = im getting one for my 18th
you drink = yes
you do drugs = never have, never will!
you smoke = no....its too hard...i almost died in a carpark trying to do it
you like cleaning = on my time i do.
you like roller coasters = yes!!!
you write in cursive or print = print when i'm writing nice, but if i'm writing rough, cursive
you carry a donor card = yes! and proud of it

HAVE YOU...
ever cried over a boy/girl = no
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = no
ever been arrested = no

WHAT...
shampoo do you use = dms at the moment
perfume do you use = Yves Saint Laurent Baby Doll
shoes do you wear = jandles at the mo.
you scared of = spiders, *rocks back and forth*

NUMBER...
of times you have been in love? = once
of times you have had your heart broken? = zero
of hearts you have broken? = one
of people you consider your enemies? = two
of people from high school that you have stayed in contact with? = havent left yet
of CDs' that you own? = 60 or so
of times your name has appeared in the newspaper? = six times
of things in your past that you regret: 4 things

The shoes you wore today: my adidas sneakers
Your hair: blonde streaked
Your eyes: blue
Your weakness?: thats debatable
Your fears: rejection, catching the wrong bus
Your perfect pizza: mmmmm pizza....

WHAT IS...

Your thoughts first waking up: "must open eyes"
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes, but it changes from guy to guy
Your best physical feature: my eyes....
Your bedtime: around 10 - 10:30
Your greatest accomplishment: being able to laugh at myself

EVERYTHING...
Your most missed memory: being a band groupie

YOU PREFER...
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDs
Adidas or nike: adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappucinno

DO YOU...
Sing well: i can, but i choose not to
Take a shower everyday: yes
Do you think you've been in love: yes
Want to go to college: yes, no question
Want to get married: yep
Type with your fingers on the right keys: again, i can - but i choose not too
Believe in yourself: yes
Think you're attractive: when i'm having a good day
Think you're a health freak: no way
Get along with your parents: yeah i do generally
Like thunderstorms?: they is cool
Play an instrument: my voice...

HAVE YOU RECENTLY...
Drank alcohol: yeah, wine last night
Made Out: yes :o)
Go on a date: nope
Go to the mall?: I went shopping yesturday
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: noo...way too overrated
Been on stage: yeah, heaps
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: yeah...badly
Made homemade cookies: with nanny all the time!
Been in love: yes
Gone skinny dipping: No
Dyed your hair: yes
Stolen anything: no

HAVE YOU EVER...
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: i havent puked yet
Been called a tease: yes
Gotten beaten up: yes
Shoplifted: when i was like four
If so, did you get caught: yeah, by my mum...
Changed who you were to fit in: a lil bit, but not anymore

THE FUTURE...
Age you hope to be married: 28
Numbers and Names of Children: 2, tobias and brooke
Descibe your Dream Wedding: don't have one
When do you want to die: when my time is up, but not before
What do you want to be when you grow up: a designer
What country would you most like to visit: Italy

NUMBER OF...
Drugs taken illegally: zero
People I could trust with my life: 8 people
Scars on my body: like 20 million. my knee and my scalp are the best ones....
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yay for fucked up weather! [Feb. 16th, 2004|09:47 pm]
[mood | mischievous]
[music |here in my room - incubus]

man, what a weekend!....well, what a past five days!

quick review:

Thursday:
skipped last period of school, met up with jacynta, went shopping, bought jandles and fluid. went to her back appointment with her. rachel rang me, said she was running late cause she had to go talk to adam [boyfriend] bout the miscarriage she thought she was having. met up with her, went to purple onion for dinner to talk - had the BEST open sandwich ever!...

Friday:
Hard hard day at school, got heaps of homework! dammit! lol. missioned to library afterschool, found like heaps of dvds, went birthday present shopping for mum and jenna and was followed up cuba st by ian....creepy mo fo!
rachel bought her son luke over for dinner, we had a good chat - me and karen and rachel. and then we watched ice age in order to get luke to go to sleep.

Saturday:
started work at 10am, was really fucked off with kerrin for like the whole day. ate my lunch watching david bowie - how fuckin cool is THAT???!!!. finished on sandwich section at 7pm, signed out, then mucked around in the pizza kitchen with kerrin, celia and ella for like an hour, celia and ella left, i was alone in their with kerrin for like half an hour.....nothing happened, dammit....we didnt even talk! ha ha ha...well we did....but not intense or anything....we went for a walk together though....and we watched a bit of bowie together....but an uneventful night. bowie was GREAT THOUGH!!!!!!, bought a really cool david bowie poster too.
rachel and karen picked me up from work, i went home, had dessert, then went to bed.

Sunday:
had a really solid sleep, had trouble getting up, didn't get up until 9:30am, so i had like 15 mins to get ready and get out the door. work was sooo fucking boring, made like 500 baguettes and like 200 ham swiss sandwiches! argh! had to listen to the national programme all day, as well as jane and co talking about porno movies....not good. texted kerrin during my lunch break...he's such a good big brother, stood up to his mates who stole his sisters money of their dining room table...decked them one [i reackon he lied about that one lol] and told them they werent welcome in his house anymore....awww...what a cutie!
went home and did heaps of homework, went to bed early!

Monday:
Slept till 8am! very very late! rushed to get out the door, JUST managed to get the last bus, for like an hour, bus broke down, was very late for school, so went to the station, bumped into sarah [mum] from work, gave her a hug, bumped into matthew dale like two seconds later, so he walked with me and sarah then bumped into sarah tanner who told me school was closed [i believed her! ha ha ha] so i went into town with matthew....ha ha ha.....ended up meeting up with hayley pope, then all three of us went back to my place and ordered pizza and watched dvds. hayley buggered off back home, so matt and i hooked up on the couch for two hours. what a good storm! ha ha ha
cynta rang me while i was cooking dinner, we had a good chat - slipped out the whole kerrin thing! ha ha!, she had no idea whats so ever lol!, but she thinks its totally cute and cool. she is no longer a threat! [thankgod]....but yeah....she's annoying me by saying she's going to play cupid....which i dont want....but she also told me that i needed to face the reality that kerrin probably wont do anything until i'm 18.....*sigh*....so thats another 8 months of keeping kerrin interested.....

*fingers crossed aye?*

anyways, bed time....i is tired!

buy the incubus cd everyone dammit!
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v. v. sad [Feb. 7th, 2004|09:18 am]
[mood | shocked]

found out that my nana died yesturday morning five minutes before i was due to leave for work...so i had to work all yesturday 9am - 12am [15 hours!] under all this work stress.
i'm so physically and emotionally drained right now. and i have to do the whole working thing for the next two days. i'm just so glad everyone at work understands and is being totally sweet towards me and karen!
kerrin called me doll and gave me the sweetest hug last night....awwwwwwwww....
anyways, working for the next two days, gonna take monday and tuesday off school, then on wednesday we're all ferrying down to blenhiem for the day for the funeral.
i'm very sad. it's even worse for my dad, he is out of the country when his mother dies....
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you will listen to the amplifier show! [Feb. 3rd, 2004|10:07 pm]
[mood | rejuvenated]
[music |fire - the black seeds]

OMFG!!! my sister is sooooo amazingly stupid and crazy and silly and funny and arghh and OMG its actually not funny! arghh.....omg...fuck.....

last night i texted kerrin and invited him to incubus with me and jacynta....he said that he was alright, and then i called him a soup for one thinking "oh god, he doesnt wanna go with me", he replied with "nah, i just don't wanna go"....so thats all good, its not me, which means now that all i have to do is convince him to come....shouldn't be tooo hard....four days with him this week should give me plenty of time.....

had a really cruisey day at school, started the day nice and slow with design followed by media studies, media studies was real hard today, we started on film theory which is sooo fuckin confusing....all this shit about french theorists and stuff, all of this in order to start us on our alfred hitchcock close study....then i had an extended morning tea break due to study period, was good cause i went and got wholly bagels and we danced in the common room. then i had graphics! man mr daniels is HARD, he knows his shit BIG TIME, i'm having real trouble doing the whole technical drawing thing, but my main goal for this year is to perfect that....so fingers crossed, must work at that hard. then i had lunch, good lunch, followed by the cruisiest IT lesson and photography lesson, it was good cause hayley had those last two periods with me, so after school we went and got coffee, sat in starbucks for two hours talking about EVERYTHING....it was real nice...

after that, she left to go to work and i jumped on the bus to go home, fell over on the bus, but this real sweet lil third form coll boy helped me up....it was very cute....ha ha ha, i then missioned home [walked real fast], sat down straight away and did allll my homework [yay go me!] and then i watched tv for like the rest of the night.

had a really nice long bath before...trying to get myself all rested up before my big long weekend, i put some really good and expensive conditioner through my hair and some nice bubble bath in the water - now i smell fuckin good! and i feel fuckin good cause i'm all cleaned, shaven, exfoliated and moisturized!!

now all i need is a good nights sleep! so i'm going to go do that!

c you bye
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[Feb. 2nd, 2004|04:32 pm]
[mood | crazy]
[music |mexico - incubus]

FUCK I FEEL GREAT!!!....except for the sore feet [blasted shoes] and the sprained/bruised wrist [blasted kerrin] i feel fantastic!

today i was very very productive with my study period, i went out and bought two plain art diaries, starbucks and great pants! sexy sexy pants! denim pants! 3/4 pants! butt hugging pants! yay for pants!

so that was all good, my whim purchase has put me in a good mood, and has made me decide that next week i'm going to buy a black jersey/jacket thing from somewhere, and then the week after that i'm going to buy shoes, sexy black shoes. ahh yay for having money to buy stuff and actually buying stuff! proper stuff! practical stuff that i actually need.

in case anyone cares, my sunday was much improved from saturday, i wrote this big entry last night, but when i read it back to myself i decided that i sounded like a dick, and the word kerrin frequented FARRR to much in the entry, so i didnt post it. instead i will say this; very good kerrin day, just like old buddies, mucking around etc etc, he was hanging out with me and jacynta yesturday so that was GREAT, had quite a rough play fight with him near the end of the day and managed to get myself quite a nasty injury on my wrist...its nice and bruised...i think that on thursday [when i work again] he will have to kiss it better....[ha ha, yay for wishful thinking!]....

anyways, i've got lots of homework to do...and i've decided that i'm going to get onto that kinda stuff in the evening this year, rather than at 10pm at night, so i'm gonna go and do that!

YAY FOR ME!

ciao xxoo
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[Jan. 31st, 2004|06:09 pm]
[mood | angry]
[music |megalomaniac - incubus]

meh, what a completely fucked up day! i'm sooo fucked off right now, so fucked off infact that i can't even be bothered being fucked off anymore.

I have been in such a good mood this whole week and then people just come along and make me feel shit, totally ruining the good vibe that i had going on, it was giving me a sexy glow, goddammit!...nothing can cheer me up at the moment, everything is making me mad....

people suck....why can't people find better things to talk about than other people???? they don't even fuckin know me. fuck off. pissy arsed cunts.

i hope for everyone's sake i get some sleep tonight, i have a better day tomorrow and kerrin turns up at work....cause if not.....tomorrow's journal entry is gonna be much much worse than this!!!

argh!!! fuckers!
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3:2 [Jan. 27th, 2004|06:53 pm]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |more to life - stacey orrico]

ahhhh....i'm feeling GREAT!!! I FULLY had the best day today!

got up early and went to the pool, ahhh it was a fantastic swim today, 50 lengths! yeah! go me! [my shoulder is a bit fucked up though...must be careful!]

Then I bused into town, met my girls [Jenna and Hayley] and went for a coffee [yum Astoria coffee is all good!], we then went to whitcoulls and bought a diary each...lol, we're such dicks - we bought matching diary's... though, i've covered mine with my photography work from last year....just to be different...

we then went up to school, they had posted our form class lists up in the foyer, turns out Jenna and I are in the same form class together which is totally wicked! and we're on the third floor, so we get to catch the lift he he he...We're in the 'graphics form class' and we've got a new teacher, Mr Daniels, we havent met him yet...he's moving down from Auckland today, so we won't see him until Friday, but thats all good...rumor is he's VERY good at graphics and we're sooo lucky to have him!....Friday should be interesting...

I've also got Mrs Henjyoji for Media Studies this year, which i'm sooo stoked about! he he he, she is great - she pushes me hard and I know i'm going to do well in that class. For the first time ever i've got more male teachers than female teachers, but its all good...cause i've got good teachers...except for photography....eurgh...Mrs OMalley...not cool...i'll get over that though...well at least try too...

So it was good finding out my teachers today. We also played bench ball as a class bonding excercise...that was soo much fun, I havent played that since fourth form...he he...we ran around the gym for an hour, I was soo sweaty and hot...but it was fun, Vera kept cracking me up by making me do Julian Casablanca's inpersonations....fuckin hilarious...and her captian planet routine is just down right stupid, but we love her - a perfect choice for head girl.

After school Hayley and I walked down to kirks and bought cheap undies! total bargins, hopefully If i get time after going to work and out to J'ville tomorrow after school I can go back to kirks and hunt out a nice bra...I seriously need a new bra....

anyways, lots of stuff to do!
Ciao.
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lily was here [Jan. 26th, 2004|12:35 pm]
[mood | determined]
[music |crazy in love - beyonce]

Man, i'm so lazy, I went to bed last night at 9:30pm...I only woke up an hour ago...thats sooo wacked cause I NEVER sleep for that long...unless i'm really tired cause i've had no sleep, but no...I havent been working that hard, and I haven't been getting up early over the past week...maybe I just got into the habit of getting up early and going to the pool, then as soon as I got out of the habit my metabolism slowed right down...I am currently tossing up whether i'm going to go to the pool this arvo, I spose I should - Matt and I are sitting here being total slobs, we are both still in pee-jays, it might be good to get out...ahhh i'm too tired to think...

OMG, i'm such a dick. I am sooo excited about school tomorrow....ha ha ha, actually....I lie, i'm more excited about getting my first assignments...I was lying in bed before thinking..."man, I want to work hard this year, do real thorough jobs on my assignments, get onto them early"...I think I should get the word 'DORK' tattooed across my forehead! lol

Ha ha ha, anyways...better go, Jenna is sposed to be ringing me soon - apparently I need a councilling session.
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root my boots [Jan. 25th, 2004|07:40 pm]
[mood | irritated]
[music |senorita - justin timberlake]

man i hate crappy days! they really root my boots!!
I got to work yesturday to find out that the 'sandwich' section has been moved upstairs to the fourth floor in deloittes for the sevens and possibly permanently....its soo fuckin irritating, we've been moved away from everyone...so its only us in this small kitchen upstairs...meaning hell cabin fever! argh....not good...specially when its been nicknamed 'the old wifes club' - which is soo true...something i would rather stay out of...
anyways, i've had my job description changed without anyone informing me...apparently i'm 'prep bitch' now...meaning no more sandwichs....meaning preparing shite loads of stuff for the sandwich section, ewww @ having to fry 100 eggs in a row....the only plsu side to the job is I get to go up and down the lifts heaps, and can escape the deloittes kitchen and go see my buddys downstairs....
did not have a good day today...though, woggle asked if i could work on thursday, so thats all good...i can finally see kerrins new haircut...sooner than planned.....excerlent....
meh, stupid people fucking me off....
i'm in such an anti mood right now.

fuck the lot of them.
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*whistles* [Jan. 24th, 2004|06:45 pm]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |sail away - david gray]

'Sail Away' - david gray

Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now

Crazy skies all wild above me now
Winter howling at my face
And everything I held so dear
Disappeared without a trace
Oh all the times I've tasted love
Never knew quite what I had
Little Darling if you hear me now
Never needed you so bad
Spinning round inside my head

Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now

I've been talking drunken gibberish
I've been puching at the bars
Trying to find some explanation here
For the way some people are
How did it ever come so far

Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now
Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey now, now, now
Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now


awww, i'm sooo diggin the david gray at the moment....maybe its suiting my whole kerrin outlook. awww things are getting better....i like our whole texting each other for three hours thing that we've got going on at the moment...like, i don't want to get too excited, and keep reminding myself that i dont know for sure that he feels the same way, so i can't jump to conclusions about stuff...and omg its so hard when he keeps saying the stuff he does....but i HAVE to keep reminding myself, things could change....like, when we see each other in real life he could be completely different! damn him being away....and not working....i wont see him until next saturday! thankfully i've got a really busy week....school and what have you....so i wont be sitting at home waiting and wondering...
he's just soo sweet though, he sent me a text yesturday morning saying "do you think i should get a haircut?"...i said yes of course....and awww, he sent me a text a couple of hours later telling me he had got a haircut.....he he he....good boy....

anyways, i've got a celebratory bbq to get back too....

ciao
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theres no way we're going to give up... [Jan. 11th, 2004|11:38 am]
[mood | artistic]
[music |harder to breathe - maroon 5]

so wow, what an amazing week and half i've had....a great start to the big 04 if you ask me!

on friday we drove home from a week [two weeks for MaD and matchu] in sunny ol Gisborne.....FACK it was nice up there! it was just what i needed, space from everything down in wellington.

It was so good to get away and just have time to myself, well sorta, there was the whole family bonding thing, but I didnt mind that...
I had a good long think about stuff while I was up there, sorted a few things out in my head and generally planned for this year.

I decided that as far as things with Kerrin are concerned, i'm not going to bother...I'm still very much in like with him....but ya know...he hasnt shown an interest and after the texts I got from him while I was in gisborne I decided he isn't worth getting all dewy eyed over, esspecially if he's not going to recipricate that.
I also decided that this year, i'm not going to TRY with my friends, i'm going to take things as they go and not bother. cause quite frankly i'm sick of trying all the fucking time and being the instigator in EVERYTHING and getting nothing from it, cause its just turning out to be a monumental waste of time and energy.
And finally, I decided that if theres anything i'm going to focus on this year, its school. I just can't muck around this year...I set hard goals for myself last year, this year they're even harder...i've got to work. and for once in my life i am determined too.

So much in my life is changing, its looking more and more likely everyday that my parents and little brother could be moving to Belgium by the end of the year, and cause my parents want me to study as soon as I finish 7th form I've got to get myself prepared to not only deal with the whole going to uni thing, but also the uprooting of my family. i'm actually in the process of deciding where i want to go to uni, and i'm actually considering otago...so maybe....i dunno.....i just know i've got to focus....

Saving money is another big thing i've got to start doing, so far i've got $500 saved, by the end of the year i want to have $2000 minimum saved, i reackon i can do it, just so long as i skip the morning coffee everyday, and the coke at work, and the new world excursions when at school...it shouldnt be too hard though....cause having all this money saved in my account already is refreshing and makes me want to save more money....

meh...

so yeah, the time in gisborne was good, i basically lay around on the beach all day, getting extremely sunburnt [which has now turned into tan yay!], and reading crappy romance novels that i bought for $1 each at the local second hand store....ba ha ha...
it was sooooo friggin hot up there, i didn't go below 30 degrees at all while i was up there, well during the days anyway, at night time it didnt go below 20 degrees. It was nice though, there were tonnes of nice people up there, our family made good friends with the family across the "road" from our campsite, went out for dinner with them and went kyaking with them as well...so that was cool.
We drove up north on monday i think it was, up to Tolaga bay, which has this historical wharf thing, its the longest wharf in New Zealand at 600m long, man it was nice there.....absoloutly beautiful, crystal clear water, that was warm! white sands, trees right down the water.....ohhh it was lovely, and the great thing about it was that it was totally in the sticks...meaning NO cellphone coverage! so it felt really cool to be sitting on this amazing beach totally away from everything!

though, in saying all this stuff about how great it was to be away from wellington, I still missed it....nothing can compare....gisborne is a hole! they don't even have a glassons there....so ya know....ha ha, its not big enough to sustain me at all....plus the local pools up north are crap!...it felt sooooooo good to be back in Karori pool yesturday.....oh its sooo lovely!

Gabi emailed me from Sydney, I didn't actually realise how much i missed her until i read that email, i could just picture her saying what was written in front of me and it made me smile. she's all good, and settling into life as a lady of leisure, she hasnt said much about daniel, so i wrote her back and asked the hard questions, hopefully she replies soon....oh i need some gossip bad!

anyways, there isnt much more i can write without becoming overly disjointed, so i'm going to leave it at that. i've got to go clean my room anyway....ha ha ha....

right, ciao.

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cusp 04 babybeeeeeeeee! [Jan. 2nd, 2004|10:53 am]
[mood | grateful]
[music |harder to breathe - maroon 5]

woah mamma!!! what an interested two days i have had! what i said about being tired two days ago....scrap that! i wasn't even tired.....but NOW i'm tired! lol.

CUSP ROCKED!!! i had sooo much fun, and its definitly something i'm not going to forget...for a very very long time....

the day didnt really start to pick up for me probably until about 9pm on the 31st...after that things got great.

highlights: the ferris wheel.....that was soo much fun, the flights, fur patrol, autozamm, 1qa, making friends with robbie, tahuna beach at 8am in the morning, GREAT benji and nick cuddles, the lovely weather, and finally going to bed at 7pm last night and sleeping for 13 hours uninterrupted!

the only thing that made me a bit dissapointed was how cold i got [....hayley you blanket hog!], and being lied to my face....but ya know.....i can get over that....it was a pretty big line, and it was made up for.....

cusp was completely different to what i thought it would, hell nelson was completely different to how i thought it would be....but it was fun....and i felt that we dealt surprisingly well on the whole "no sleep for over 24 hours" thing, though....sleeping on the plane was a bit of a help, nice power nap....not sure how glamorous i looked though - how bad did i look hayley?? [god dammit missing out on my mineral water]

yay for genuine concern!

anyways, i've got to go and pack my bag, ready for my big holiday up north......yay....leaving for gisborne tomorrow...so i'm sleeping at my grandparents place tonight and then they are dropping me off at the airport tomorrow morning.....[hayley, will you hold my hand in your head at 10:10am tomorrow...its going to be like the ferris wheel again].....

ciao ya'll....see you in a week i think!
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|09:21 pm]
[mood | drained]
[music |do you have a little time - dido]

ahhhhhh what a tiring past two days! i am sooo nackered! yay for an early night and a late sleep in though! tomorrow night is going to be sooo wicked! yay!!

ohlm, kerrin and i went halfs in a coke today....mmm how cliche does that sound? mmmm kerrin spit...but awww...he was sooo gorgeous...

i shocked myself BIG time this morning! talk about foul mouth! lol. theres this lifeguard at the pool called john, he's really nice. anyways, he's become attached to this neighbourhood cat named twinkle that managed to walk in the door with me yesturday morning...so yeah, everytime it comes in, he pats it, cuddles it etc.....totally gorgeous lol!....anyways....so yeah, as i was walking out the door of the pool today, john is behind the counter patting the cat, and sorta springs up as i'm walking out.....so i smirk at him, and say "you better be careful....getting sprung with pussy at work mate....not a good look"......OMG!!....he laughed *thankfully*......but ohhh....why did i say that??

anyways, thanks renee for this one:

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?: been to a bar and drunk

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?: i didn't make

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?: No

4. Did anyone close to you die? Not really close....

5. What countries did you visit? New Zealand

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? kerrin...

7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?: december 1st - LOTR!!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?: doing REALLY well in photography, and discovering my passion for design and the like.

9. What was your biggest failure?: not getting to prizegiving....that was my one goal for the year!

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?: yeah, i was pretty sick with the flu a couple of weeks before school finished

11. What was the best thing you bought?: my sunnies

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?: mine! lol

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?: uhh...some of my friends....

14. Where did most of your money go?: food and cd's and cellfone.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?: the datsuns concert!

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?: crazy in love - beyonce

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? definitly happier!
ii. smaller or larger? smaller....surprisingly
iii. richer or poorer? about $1000 richer! yay!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? got into my swimming earlier!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? fucking around

20. This question did not apply hense it was deleted a moment of silence please

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?: probably hayley....

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?: nah.....i'm not in love yet

23. How many one-night stands?: None

24. What was your favorite TV program?: McLeods baby!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?: no one

26. What was the best book you read?: learning to swim - clare chambers

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?: stylus77

28. What did you want and get?: a new job

29. What did you want and not get?: kerrin

30. What was your favorite film of this year?: bend it like beckham

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?: nothing, my birthday sucked!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?: better marks

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?: experimental

34. What kept you sane?: Music

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?: there were three: Ioan, Orlando and Viggo

36. What political issue stirred you the most?: Emigration to New Zealand.....the Asians....

37. Who did you miss?: dad when he went away

38. Who was the best new person you met?: all the people at the stadium....good people....great friends....mmm kerrin

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003?: grow up, think about your actions

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:?
"good things come to those who wait"
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most embarassing moment [Dec. 28th, 2003|08:26 pm]
[mood | content]
[music |racehorse - paselode]

wow, what and interesting and full on past week it has been!!!.....and its going to continue that way until tuesday night man....then the fun really begins...

boy oh boy!

monday: was a total bitch of a day, had a totally stressful day at the stadium as we were super busy and ella fucked up her orders, so we ended up working until 7pm! argh, lol, after that though, got better, went out to hayleys, got my cd back and then trained back into town, didn't get into karori until 9pm. bumped into some friends of mine so i went back to theres and had a chat, and then i walked up to the hoslers to meet up with mum and dad and had a few too many wines there and didnt end up walking home until 1am on tuesday morning.....lol...

tuesday: alright day today, the end of an era really, gabi and i had our last day at brumbys on tuesday.....what an anti-climax to the last two years of working there...

wednesday: today was my good kerrin day at work....i don't want to say anymore about it cause i keep going on about it....but ohlm....kerrin goodness...he smelt goood on wednesday....

thursday: yay christmas!!!! fuck i had SUCH a good xmas this year!! we all got up super early and ate breakfast together as a family, then kari and i went to work [that was sooo much fun] and then we came home around 2pm, opened pressies, drank far too much wine, champers and beer, gorged ourselves on goood food and then went for nana naps at about 5pm.....fucken keram kept texting me though, so i couldn't actually get to sleep, so i got up and spent the rest of the night watching tv.....joy for the soup-for-oneness of it all.

fridy: good day at work, sorta, actually, no i lie....BAD day at work....a fuck load of issues going on there...jane [supervisor] was having a really bad day and kept going mental at keram....cause he was being a dick...jane got really really fucked off, so i just left that area and went and cooked up some falefel....jane started blowing up at everyone down that end of the kitchen and kerrin and i were just looking at each other going "fuuuuck.....don't wanna be down thereee"....

saturday: interesting day....work was usual....ella invited me back to her place for drinks, so i went to the pool and then came back into town and met everyone from work at the stadium pub and then ella and i trained out to her place and sat all night and finished off all the alcohol in her fridge....a bit too much to drink i think...

got up FARRRR to early this morning, ooohhh my head hurt, lol. had to rush out the door, missed the train, so we were late for work, AND my uniform wasnt dry so i had to work wearing wet clothes today....
worked really hard today, trying to redem myself for friday and saturdays antics at work.....on friday i officially got my first "most embarrassing moment", marty threw and egg at me, which i caught, but then i stupidly tried to be smart and i said that fact about the strongest man in the world not being able to crack and egg between his thumb and his forefinger....turns out i was wrong, marty told me to prove it....so i did....cept, the egg cracked.....ALLLLLL over me.....on my face, down my top, fuck it was hiliarious, i couldn't stop laughing....ella, marty, keram, kerrin alll there watching me....i was mocked for the rest of the day about it...lol....i've never seen ppl laugh to hard though.....

anyways, yeah, so worked hard today, finished around 4:30pm so marty jacynta and i went for a drive and then he dropped me home. i then went and met karen at the mall, we went shopping for food [we got goood healthy stuff yay go us] and then cruised on up to the pool.

now we're just chillin out drinking cocktails....my current is a mixture of spirilina, feijoja vodka, fresh limes and just juice....mmmmm...tis very tasty....

so yeah, that was my week in brief...working tomorrow...i feel like getting up early tomorrow and going to the pool before work....dunno if i reaaaallly WANT to get up at 6am, only if the weather is good i guess, ewww this mornings weather was gross....

the next week is going to be pretty full on, working tomorrow and tuesday, then i'm going to sleep in on wednesday, then its off to nelson for the night, and then i'm going to sleep all day friday, and then i'm flying off to gisborne on saturday....so yay!!!! its gonna be a good week....
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yay its christmas time! [Dec. 24th, 2003|07:38 pm]
[mood | excited]
[music |'good things' - stylus77]

awww, yay, what a good day today.....

i had sooo much fun at work, everyone was being totally casual and relaxed and fully into the xmas spirit....we had xmas cake at lunch and after work they bought us all in two beers each, so we all sat around the kitchen for about an hour after we finished worked just drinking beer and talking.....great fun.

kerrin was loverly today.....he was totally sweet before, during and after me sealing his sauces for him......*melts*....and we were squished in the car next to each other on the way up to the stadium bar.....*mmm kerrin closeness*....

this has made me totally excited about xmas!

yay!

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!!!
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