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ibbie's DeadJournal:
| Saturday, December 11th, 2004 | |||||
| 7:58 pm | Circles and turns, circles and turns I'm back. Yes, finally, I am back. I'm pushing, slowly, but I'm back. I have scars, yes, I have scars that show how my emotions have erupted, have boiled, have exploded in such a fashion as to endanger my life. Not to mention my sanity, or Heather's. I'm becoming my old self, to some extent. My old self, in that I'm perfectly prepared and ready to kill someone if it's necessary. I might even have fun while doing it, primarily because, well, fuck you: my survival counts more than yours, because in my eyes, you don't count for shit compared to me. And to another extent, I'm feeling more peaceful than I have in years. I don't want to attack anything, anyone. I don't feel the need to lash out the way I did - and have. Yeah, I've been avoiding people because I've felt like attacking everything, everyone in sight. I've felt so full of hatred that at times I just couldn't keep it all inside. And I'm still full of hatred... But finally, again... I can focus it where I want it to go. And that, to me, is one of the most important things of all.. Current Mood:  good | ||||
| Sunday, September 19th, 2004 | |||||
| 7:32 pm | Bang bang, xanga. Bang bang. So, I'm minding my own business, configuring my video drivers and taking video capture shots of Fight Club, when I decide to take a peek at my xanga. And whammo, I get this little bug dude telling me that there's an error. Fucker. There shouldn't be any errors. I didn't tell it to error, damn it. So I load up my deadjournal client, and post an entry. Fuck you, little bug. Fuck you and all your beetle-dicked friends, too. In the out-door. Without lube. Biatch. That is all.  | ||||
| 1:48 pm | Gadgets... GADGETS!$@#$!#! Happy Birthday, to me. Well, in a few days or so, at any rate. But that didn't stop me from aquiring an awesome Sony IDE DVD/CD writer / re-writer , that handles double and single layer DVDs, and writes CD-Rs at 48x and CD-RWs at 24x. Woo, yay. I've been using a 16x CD-ROM for the last 8 years. And, Bear got me an video card with a TV-out Now to see how well it likes my DVD-ROM. Hooray for upgrades. Hooray! Current Mood:  geeky | ||||
| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004 | |||||
| 9:51 pm | Props to JaNell! Big super-dooper props to JaNell for posting the definition of the dreaded iblis link on urban dictionary. I, per usual, had to add my own two cents, but your definition put a smile on my face. Current Mood: geekyCurrent Music: Techno - Ninja Gaiden | ||||
| Saturday, August 7th, 2004 | |||||
| 12:44 pm | So what do you want to do today, Brain...? I've decided that I'm going hack together a BBS. Not a web board. There are plenty out there, and it's not really worth the trouble. Not another drama magnet, accessible to the plethora of plebians who can't even spell troll, let alone manage it with any sort of style. Fuck a bunch of that shit. Oh no, this sucker's gonna be sheer ASCII / ANSI to the teeth. A delightful mesh of retro-meets-neo, SSH and dialup. Yes, that's right, dialup. Just like in the old days. Well, like the old days, with better encryption. I'll post more on this when I get it underway. Current Mood:  energeticCurrent Music: Johnny Hollow - People Are Strange (Doors Cover) | ||||
| Sunday, July 18th, 2004 | |||||
| 5:55 pm | Finally... I've moooooooooooooooooooooved! Yes, that's right. I'm in my new secret and partially underground lair, now. I have cat five strung across the ceiling, and hooks hanging about in the closet. I have the soft hum of processor fans and the cool breeze of air conditioning. Posters are on the walls, and the black and red lights are glowing, and the hard cider is flowing. Squares of black and blue cover this domain, this tiny little haven of iniquity and insanity. It might not be huge, it might not be grand on a scale that other people think on, but god-fucking-damn, it feels like home, now. Now all I need to do is acquire my army of robot monkeys, and it's on, world. It's on. Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: Johnny Hollow - Tremor (Instrumental Short) | ||||
| Saturday, March 13th, 2004 | |||||
| 8:49 pm | Drinking and playing with dolls So, here I am, drinking some hard cola and playing with digital dolls, when my muse decides that it's time to take over ibbie's brain. Whomp. Thus, I'm making a very... unusual (some might say sacrilegious) wallpaper. Mmm, yeah, I'm going to Hell, and I'll probably have reserved seats. :D :D :D Current Mood:  drunkCurrent Music: Godspeed You Black Emporer! - hungover | ||||
| Sunday, February 29th, 2004 | |||||
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| Sunday, February 22nd, 2004 | |||||
| 11:44 am | Wow, I'm updating this journal using centericq in Linux. It's fucking sweet! Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Godspeed You Black Emporer! - hungover | ||||
| Sunday, February 15th, 2004 | |||||
| 9:03 am | Wooga So, I'm up at 9:00am now, and working on The Ultimate Iblis Link!. Talk about seeing something disturbing right when you get out of bed. Whew! This one's gonna be a doozy. Current Mood: chipperCurrent Music: Cradle of Filth - At the Gates of Midian (2:21) | ||||
| Saturday, January 31st, 2004 | |||||
| 8:15 pm | a weekend update! So, the new job is uber-cool. Currently, I get to play around with credit card terminals, and have access to all kinds of spiffy cool hyper-sensitive information. The fact that I can pay my rent in just one paycheck sort of sweetens the deal, too. :D Current Mood: bouncyCurrent Music: Deftones - Change (5:01) | ||||
| Wednesday, January 21st, 2004 | |||||
| 6:50 pm | yay! I've got a new job! | ||||
| Tuesday, January 6th, 2004 | |||||
| 11:26 am | 66 57 36 b6 96 e6 76 Blargh. My brain's going in so many different directions, it's not EVEN funny. Have to find a way out of this funk I've been in. Fix the breaks and break the fixes. Move forward and shift backwards. Become who I used to be, and yet keep who I am today. A paradox is all fun and games until the outcome really begins to matter. Current Mood:  bitchyCurrent Music: sadness will prevail - ivory of self hate (3:40) | ||||
| Friday, November 14th, 2003 | |||||
| 9:14 am | Cold! Brrr! It's. Fucking. Cold! Current Mood:  coldCurrent Music: Frontline Assembly - Justify My Love (5:01) | ||||
| Wednesday, September 17th, 2003 | |||||
| 8:47 am | Moovie!  | ||||
| Tuesday, September 9th, 2003 | |||||
| 11:04 am |  Dental Floss. Take the most pointless quiz ever made by Twink | ||||
| Friday, May 30th, 2003 | |||||
| 8:32 am | Update Brief synopsis: I am single now. I am about to be unemployed. I'm moving away from this hell-hole called Rogersville, and out to a larger hell-hole called Knoxville. At least there are people there. Even some smart ones. | ||||
| Saturday, May 10th, 2003 | |||||
| 8:46 pm | hello again! it's been awhile, i know. i've been posting a tad more regularly on xanga, but have been too lazy to cross-post to here. bad me. (: at any rate, let me bring you up to speed. thus far, nothing extraordinary has occured in my life.
i'm still addicted to evercrack, of course. very addicted. in fact, i think i'm going to go log on, now. Current Mood:  naughtyCurrent Music: [dvd] resident evil - widescreen edition | ||||
| Thursday, March 27th, 2003 | |||||
| 3:03 pm | very interesting... but stupid. guess what i found? bertie bott's every flavor beans! yeah, i know. my life is now complete, too. Current Mood: busyCurrent Music: Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah | ||||
| Sunday, March 23rd, 2003 | |||||
| 9:42 pm | we gallop into blind uncertainty with an air of jaded boredom, perhaps not quite convinced that the next pearl harbor, the next world trade center, could be our garage, or that of our neighbor, next door. Current Mood: hornyCurrent Music: :: white noise :: | ||||
